The Here and Now

Greetings, wow...


I've been pretty neglectful about my blogging. There have been a lot of things going on though - great things.

My time as a recruiter for the community college is over, so I'm back to my normal position, but I ended up getting my friend a job there, so work is a lot more interesting, and still an awesome place to be. I have to say that I'm very blessed to have a job where people genuinely care about me being there. Some new developments? Well hair style has changed, and physically, i've gotten a bit bigger seeing as I stay on a consistent workout schedule-things are good though. I'm spending a lot of time writing new music, and just hanging out with my friends here in KC, which is probably the greatest thing I love about living here. The amount of people that really care about me.

I've gotten into a lot of awesome things in the past few months. I've never really been into dungeons and dragons but my friends turned me on to it for New years. Haha, i spent an awesome new years with some geeky people like myself and played D and D, video games and and just chilled.

Musically? Got a few things in the works, will talk more about that at a later date though. I've been really focusing on getting into Grad school, and figuring out what I want to focus on. Since I've been doing recruitment and going to some of the High Schools in the inner city area, it's help me realized that a lot of these kids need mentors, and legit advisors. Not only to give them advice about their future careers, but also to instill a sense of well-being into them. There were a lot of times where the mentality of some of the students I talked to was one of a self-defeatist nature.

If anything, I want to be that person that helps these kids get rid of their passive, "follow-the-leader" type lifestyle and help them realize what kind of person they are, their own person. Having confidence about who you are and where you fit into this world should come from yourself, not administered to you by others. Maybe I'm more keen to this type of behavior now because I know people who are like that...

I have to say that God has really been working on my heart. The past year instituted a rollercoaster of emotions and letdowns from people I trusted, but the remarkable thing, the absolute remarkable thing about it is that God has been there through it all, and I have not suffered. I was speaking to a friend today about how many activities people involve themselves in, drinking, smoking, drugs, having premarital sex - are ways to fill a void in their lives that only God can fill. It's a shame that it takes some people almost a lifetime to figure that out, and I often think to myself..."if you just stop running away from Him...and stop trying to look for love and acceptance in the wrong places."
All I can do is pray for those that I know are lost right now. People like to feel like they're part of "something" and are constantly engaging in groups or activities that bring about a sense of false satisfaction and acceptance.

On a much lighter note, I'm hosting an invader zim marathon with a few friends so I'm excited for that. In the next few weeks/months I want to start hosting a lot of fun events for myself and my friends, and anyone who wants to join in. I am a big fan of fellowship and togetherness. I've been blessed to find that through my church, and through my coffee meetups with various people here.

Alllllsoooooo...I am going to start hitting up some indie films at the tivoli and what not. It's been great to get back into my love of movies, music and yes...anime.

Sadly, i dont 'think i'll get an xbox360 before february 19th. It's just as well...no one wants to battle a street fighter champion. :-)

Cheers.